Afraid of expressing.
This feeling we get before we reveal our true emotions to another person is just killer. Because we planned everything exactly how it’s supposed to be, and what we’re supposed to say, but then.. when you’re in the moment.. your mind just goes blank. And it’s frustrating. It’s frustrating because you’re trying to get a hold of your life, and you’re trying to control it, but you can’t. You can’t control human emotion; you can’t control reaction.
I, too, was cautious of expressing my emotions and what I felt. I was scared to show them because I was concerned for the judgment of others, thinking I’d be “weak.” but then, as an inspiring person told me:
“Why are you scared of expressing your emotions? It doesn’t mean you’re weak; it means you’re strong enough to show that you don’t care how others will perceive you for being you. And if they don’t like it.. they can just fuck off. At least you’re content in knowing that you’re in a place where free will isn’t something to be ashamed of.”
I’m really lucky to have such wonderful mentors in my life, aren’t I?
Lie to me.
Where do lies come from? Logical answer: Adam and Eve way back with that apple incident. My answer: Lies come from everything we do. They come from the people who feel the need that the truth isn’t exciting enough, right enough, or good enough. They were invented so no one would get “hurt”, when in reality, the longer lies live, the bigger and deeper the cut will be.
We tell lies everyday, yes we do. I’ve read it somewhere and it’s engraved in my mind. The biggest lie we say is: “I’m fine.”
There’s a difference between making an effort and lying to your friends. Yeah, there actually is.. surprise! If your friend knows how passionately you’re into something, and they talk about it to you, - forgetting the fact that you’re not much of a fan - and they still say positive and happy things, that’s making an effort. But come on, you know how a lie feels. You know the energy it emits. This was just a thought.
Making an effort and lying are two very different things; like getting what you want, and getting what you need. Not very many people know that.
