Thank You Timbits.
Who knew how hard it would be to do homework when you finally realize how good you have it? Take it from me, it’s very hard. Today I - again - realized how f**king blessed I am to have all these people around me. They care, and my heart melts at the thought of someone being able to understand me on that level.
So tomorrow, I’ve decided to come in early and give every person whose changed me a timbit.. or for those who have changed me drastically.. something better. Maybe a hug and a timbit. Yes, because I’m that lame. Now, 20 timbits isn’t enough so to say, so let’s get the 40 pack, shall we?
I’ve said it, and I will never take it back.
I love you. In all ways platonic, and in every way profusely. Physical contact isn’t enough to express it, verbal indication isn’t enough to justify it. It just is. Even when I’m my worst, you make me feel my best. Even if I saw you 10 minutes ago, my stomach still churns at the thought of seeing you again. You have this effect on me; you’re like a drug. Your name comes up, and my back straightens. Someone bad mouths you, I feel the need to defend you.
What has gotten into me?
But it’s hard. To just watch you be. To see your mistakes being made, your heart being trampled over, and your eyes fill with pain. If I love you, I’ll let you go. But that’s the problem; I love you too much. I love you enough that I’ll watch over you and protect you. As a friend, as a brother, as a sister, as a mother, as a mentor.. I’ll be what you need me to be, because against all odds, you need me.
Love.
How do you define love? How is it that this 4 letter word has so much meaning? It’s everywhere.. but not really. It is said everywhere, but meant in rarity. It is seen everywhere, but not so often felt. It is always talked about, but never shows up when it’s needed most.
The best way to describe love is by one word: indescribable. You can’t truly define it, you live it. It feels wonderful, to truly be loved. Because that’s when you know that it exists, and there is something to live for.
